I've got moves you've never seen

Tonight we watched Justin Timberlake's Bringing Sexy Back Tour on HBO.
You know what thought came to mind....
Why can't all men dance like that?
There is something so damn sexy about a man who can dance!
And maybe some of you could care less, one way or the other if your man knows how to hear the beat and then move his body in such a way that it makes the very fiber of your being sway and move right along with him. But as for me, there is simply nothing sexier then a man who can move.
Now top that off with the ability to sing (which is a plus and not a necessity) and then there is great style, humor and well lets face it good looks and you have your self one nice little package.

Now the reality of the matter is that there are so many more things that need to be added to this list, but right now I'm not talking about to much reality, la la land is just fine.
Oh Justin Timberlake....

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

Lets say that it takes a lot for me to get things some times and more often than not I think it has to be beaten into my head and my heart. I have come to realize that when I take something into my life I go to nth degree to make it part of me and my world. Then when that is taken away or needs to be left behind I am so stubborn. I do not want to let go.
I told a friend once that its like a tree being pulled roots and all from the ground, it comes up but not without a little soil and earth along the way. This is not an easy task and is proving to be something that comes with great consequences.
Now I don't think that I am any different from anyone else. I think we all have our things, and this is just mine. But lately it seems like I look at myself and wonder who the hell I am. Things that I was certain of have been turned upside down and things that left me confused in times of my past are only returning to rear their ugly heads. I long for one thing and at times live out another. I am at times feeling like I am one person and at odds with the other. This is no new concept amongst us I am sure, but wow the awareness of this has come in such intensity that I am left overwhelmed and seeking out forgiveness, grace, mercy and understanding.
It is the Lords response to this that is leaving me humbled.
There are people I could ask for all this and more, but I am not guaranteed this or anything else. Then there is He who offers it with no hesitation. I cannot believe this. I cannot handle this. I cannot fathom this.
So here I am the day after of yet another one of those times where I walked in Hyde's shoes and not so sure of the damage I have caused.

"So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me.For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God-through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin. Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering." Romans 7:21-8:3

Shadowfeet lyrics

Walking,stumbling On These Shadowfeet

Toward Home,a Land That I've Never Seen

I Am Changing: Less And Less Asleep

Made Of Different Stuff Than When I Began

And I Have Sensed It All Along

Fast Approaching Is The Day



When The World Has Fallen Out From Under Me

I'll Be Found In You, Still Standing

When The Sky Rolls Up And Mountains Fall On Their Knees

When Time And Space Are Through

I'll Be Found In You



Theres Distraction Buzzing In My Head

Saying In The Shadows It's Easier To Stay

But I've Heard Rumors Of True Reality

Whispers Of A Well-lit Way



You Make All Things New



When The World Has Fallen Out From Under Me

I'll Be Found In You, Still Standing

Every Fear And Accusation Under My Feet

When Time And Space Are Through

I'll Be Found In You

I love you slipped

in a whisper
in the car
in the room just under the blare of the music.
when you hold your hand in mine
when your angry over the confusion of a new city
when you left.

updated and well... just read

Today I sit in the basement of my friends house. I don't have a place to call my own yet, I'm waiting on Rene before that can happen, so for the last few weeks I've had this difficult time having somewhere I can call my own. I am welcome in each place I lay my head but to not have a place I can call my own is hard. In allot of ways I've struggled more with this move then I did any other in the past. After a long day at work all I want to do is come home and relax and not feel like I'm intruding on someone elses routine.
So anyhow, here I am a month into my new life in Nash and I'm already being broken in the way I should be I suppose. Got into a car accident today. The lady demolished the back end of my car and its now in the shop and I will be receiving a new new car.
I am working at my new job, stressin and at times going bananas trying to retain all the crap I have to know. But I'm making it slowly, very slowly, but surely.
I have met some pretty cool people, seen allot of movies, ate allot of food, and missed the heck out of my San Diego family.
There are more things but its late and i can't think straight so I will be back

I love

the words of the Lord
the sound of the ocean
the smell of the grass just after the rain
dancing in the isles
that song that penetrates me to the core
the way brown looks so good on him
the sunset at Torrey Pines Cliffs
the sound of my moms voice
the mystery of HIS presence
my brothers ability to make all things funny
creating whole story lines in a dance
learning about you
laughing til I cry
having the freedom to be me
the ease of that freedom with my best friends
forgiveness
lilies and tulips
pushing myself to the next level
the power of words
spontaneity
mangoes
Africa in the fall
that the list keeps on going...

Adventures in a new city

Well, Ive officially been in Nashville for about a week and things are good. Ive been getting settled into the time change, the new house, new streets and sites to see. I've gone to several Mexican restaurants and am surprised to say that it ain't half bad. Now granted I can only have corn tortillas and carne asada but its been good nonetheless.
Today I ventured out and went looking for houses and apartments that Rene and I might be interested in (for those who don't know Rene is moving out here with me, she'll be here in August). I got lost in a few neighborhoods but found one of the most beautiful homes and it had a red door! Unfortunately it wasn't for rent. :(
Then I went to the gym, which was UH-mazing, and made some friends there. I don't know if its just that people here are that much nicer then Californians or that I'm putting out a "I'm new" vibe but I have met people everywhere I've gone these past few days. I love it to say the least.
I start my new job this coming Monday which should be great. I really enjoy the people I'll be working with there is one lady there whose name is Joyce, she is the sweetest lady, she just reminds me of my grandma and I feel at peace around her. So I'm excited to say the least.
Anyhow just thought I'd give a minor update. Hope all is well in your part of the world.